Wednesday, September 28, 2011

climbed up on the dreamweaver train

As kids, my sister and I had this same reoccurring dream. We always thought we were connected in some way because of it. But looking back now, who knows if we were just bullshitting the whole thing.

It was her and me in these dresses our grandmother had bought for us. I was sitting on the curb outside the house and she'd come running from down the street. I didn't know if she was running away from something or towards something, in the dream I never asked her. I just got up and ran beside her. We would run only for a short while until we'd see this house in the distance. I can't remember the details of the house, but I know it wasn't one that I had seen before. We would turn and look at each other mid-stride, still in silence, and she would nod at me. The dream always ended as we ran up the front steps. I don't remember ever entering the house.

I sometimes still have that dream and wonder if she does too. I've never asked her about it.

Since we were just kids, we never gave much thought to what this dream might mean. You always hear about dreams having connections to your real life so I figure it's a possibility. But I've been dreaming this for so long without any change in detail. Shouldn't I have solved whatever issue this dream represents by now? 

I found this Dream Dictionary  online and this is what they had to say: 
- "To dream that you are running with someone, signifies cooperation. "
- "To see a house in your dream, represents your own soul and self. Specific rooms in the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche. In general, the attic represents your intellect, the basement represents the unconscious, etc. If the house is empty, then it indicates feelings of insecurity. If the house is shifting, then it suggests that you are going through some personal changes and changing your belief system. To dream that a house has no walls, represents a lack of privacy. You feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in your business."
- "To see your sibling in your dream, indicates unresolved issues with your sibling or unresolved issues from your childhood that needs to be confronted. Consider their actions in your dream and how it may be a reflection of your own self and your character."  

We were close as kids but have grown a part over time due to different hardships we faced. Maybe the house represents how our future relationship will shape ourselves, and we never enter because we have yet to allow ourselves to affect the life of the other. The running could represent the amends that can be reached with mutual effort. And obviously she represents herself and my relationship with her. The reoccurrence, I guess, is a reminder of the importance of this relationship to my life. Even though we don't see each other much now, our relationship is still an important part of who I am. And to truly understand myself I must begin to pry apart the decay of my relationship with my sister. 
Maybe one night we will see inside the house we ran to so many times.

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